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Stuck inside the gLoom

Well..it's funny how life can change the way people thinking or act. Its been quite a while since i came here, think about writing something. But I have no idea at all what i want to write,.

Life has been so hard lately, so many things going on in my head right now, bout work, my relationship n my personal account (human..what can make u satisfied?haha..) I tried to read what i had wrote in the past n i can see how grateful I am, bout life and all the things i had been through. It made me stronger. But seeing me now..how skeptical I am, well I dunno, It makes me wonder sometimes,  am I living my life right?

Huuhh..whatever..just my mumble thought though, maybe it's just a quarter life crisis, or just stirring in my soul  , but either way.. I want to  live this right

PS:

Affected by John Mayer song - Why Georgia

Days go by

Weks,,ga kerasa bgt akhirnya hari itu bakal dtg juga,. Stlh kmrn2 cuma sekedar jdi omongan doank, skrg hrs gw (n tmn2 sekalian tentunya :D) hadapin,. Yup, it's about hari sidang,.Which is 2 minggu lagi,. It's kinda scary for me,,^^;
Dalem ngerjain tugas akhir ini, secara ga sadar gw lbh mengenal diri gw sdr,. Ada hal2 yg buat gw terkejut..kok gw gini yaa, eh kok gw gitu yaa,,bingung,..Tpi gw inget sebuah dorama dgn quote yg menurut gw menarik,"Gw skrg sama gw 5 menit lagi mungkin bukan org yg sama lgi, krn itu gw pengen ngelakuin apa yg gw pengenin skrg dgn sepenuh hati" Simpel tpi dalem, gmn org bisa begitu cepetnya berubah,skrg temen bsk musuh, n vice versa..Gw ngalamin gmn hal ini terjadi d kehidupan gw sampai kadang gw ngerasa males punya temen..Walaupun semua itu buat ngingetin gw bahwa cuma Tuhan yg bisa gw andelin d kehidupan gw.. Yg jdi pertanyaan skrg,,sudahkan kmu melakukan sesuatu dgn sungguh2, shg ga ada penyesalan atas apa yg lo lakuin??
Klo gw,.sering kali gw ga ngelakuin sesuatu dgn sungguh2,. Baik kuliah, hubungan gw ama org laen, bahkan hubungan gw ama Yang di Atas..Yaa,,walaupun gw orgnya easy come, easy go, tpi penyesalan yg sesaat itu, darn..it's sucks, I can do better than that,.! Tpi ada iklan sabun yg bilang, "klo ga kotor ya ga belajar", ya dgn penyesalan itu, ada sesuatu yg bisa gw dapet,.krn Tuhan dah pernah bilang,. "Aku tidak akan membiarkan kamu terantuk, aplgi sampe terjatuh..",well biarlah kata2 itu jdi pegangan d hidup gw, bahwa ga ada hal sia2 yg akan gw alami,.God Blessed

Belok Kanan:jalan terus

Untuk judul postnya ga usah dipikirin artinya, gw ngasal ngasi,.^^' Tp gw mau cerita dikit ttg buku adhitya mulya yg baru, well karangan dia brg istri n temen2nya si sebenernya,. Judulnya Traveler's Tale,. It's a story about 4 childhood friends yg udah pada gede n pada hidup misah2 di berbagai belahan dunia,.. Nah the story begin here is, when one of them, Francis the pianist, declared that he will be married and asked his friends to come to Barcelona, to celebrate him marrying,..Dan keempat sahabat itu dengan tujuan n niat masing2 akhirnya brgkt ke Barcelona, dgn berbagai cara n cerita yg mungkin bisa dibilang unik,..
Jujur gw beli novel ini krn mengharapkan humor2 cerdas dri kang adit kyk yg ada di Jomblo atw Gege Mengejar Cinta (not too good, but enough), but i don't know,..read this novels, It doesny met my expectation,..
First, beberapa karakter di sini ga ada sesuatu yg mendalam,. Cuma ucup, tokoh yg berkesan buat gw, dgn kenarsisan n keanehannya, yg laen so so,. Walau pun mungkin gw milih ucup krn dia yg perjalanannya paling gila,. masuk ke gay bar, disetrum, hard landing, n hal2 ajaib lainnye,.=p
Second, this is a story about travelling, there are some good information about it though, but overall it's almost useless,.. I can' get the experience(or maybe imagine) how beautifull venesia or roma is. Rasanya sama aja kyk denger cerita "eh di jalan ganesha banyak t*i lho, jorok bgt", that's it,. biasa aja,.And yg bikin agak males, terlalu banyak sejarah n tahun2, yg hey,.I dont' care about the details that much,..
Third, endingnya dah ketebak bakal kyk gmana, si ini jadian ama siapa, si itu jadi gay atw ga, so on(yg ini ga ada novel lho,..=p) Fortunately, pembawaan cerita menuju klimaksnya cukup menarik, dgn gaya khas kang adit, heboh,.
Jadi total, klo gw kasi nilai 6 out of 10, .Dgn perut kekenyangan (thx sis n fin =), n otak mumet mikirin "that, which must not be named" (, wekeke,.) jadi ga bisa nikmatin lebih,.but it's just my 2 cents anyway, .
peace!

My Mumbling Thoughts

i'm doomed,..i don't know if it's really going to be this hard to work as an assistant coordinator,.Ideally i'm only allowed taking 11 times to fill the shifts. but because some of my dear friends whose lack of responsibility that can't even manage their own schedule, in this first weeks,(out of six), i've already filled 6 shift (almost 8 actually T_T), not to mention that i have to stay on labs everyday,gosh it's soo tiring,.in this case, the progress for my final project like freezing too,..arggh,,.i want to scream out louds,..and maybe eating a box of amanda cake, i'm dreaming of it, wakaka..(too hyperbolic, huh??=p), this can relieve me from all of this tension
but speaking of stress, lately i've followed courses of english conversation class, it ends now, and the fact that i learn from that is i've almost gained nothing,.beside some new games, riddles and some pick up lines(wuuuu =p).weird huh??wakaka. My teacher, his name is Steve,is pretty messed up,..maybe he is feeling overwhelmed by the situation, since he is new in bandung,so mostly part of my class ended with him talking,.it's too bad for 600 thousand of course fee ^^'
ah it already midnight, i will end this before i'm starting to mumble about anythings around me,.thx you for anyone whose passing by, sory for my bad english n sorry for wasting ur time,wakaka peace !!

net-i-net

OMG, dri kmrn internet d kos mati, stlh gw cari2 info ternyata gara2 ada gempa di Taiwan, jaringan backbone FO yang ngubungin Asia n US rusak berat, n dgn sukses buat sambungan internet internasional di Indonesia 80% mati. Tpi yg lucu kok FS msh bisa kebuka yaa..weird..Pdhl kan servernya ada di mana gtu. Tpi bagus lah plg ga ada alternatif laen selain nyampah d forum, ga sehat, hehe..
Soal koneksinya,gosh..it's totally annoying, i can not access internet anytime i want n i need,.which is become my habit this past few months....Lost something that become ur habit, hmm..it's bad..n paling nggak butuh sebulan untuk benerin itu..oh noo...="( Yg bisa gw akses skrg masa forum lokal, detik trus FS, ini pun byar-pet, tergantung ke mana angin berhembus..(halah!)wuaa..give me back my YM at least!,huhu.
Oia, tdi waktu gw buka2 detik ada komentar lucu dri Dirjen P****l. Masa dia nyuruh puasa internet, mana disama2in kyk puasa makan minum lgi,,apa hubungannyaa?? Bego bgt ga si, masa org t***l kyk gtu yg jdi penggede, ga ngasi solusi malah ngasi komentar konyol. Emg internet cuma jdi tmpt maen2 doank pak, buat buka situs2 17+, 21+ n ++ yg laennya. Ngerti ga si ni org klo internet tu udah jdi tumpuan org buat cari duit..Org bisnis gmana, masa disuruh pake kantor pos, kpn nyampenya pa. Dah keburu ilang kali orderannya..Trus mahasiswa jg gmana..Hah,..suka aneh deuh..Cape emg pejabat d Indonesia..silly

roLes rules

Gw bru aja dtg dri acr akhir MGG..Dah lama ga maen2 k sana tnyata byk perubahan juga ya...(baca : byk yg lucu =p) Ya sbg angktn 2003 ini bisa dibilang debut gw sebagai swasta..Nervous juga boo,,bingung CA-nya mo diapain..(Emg mo diapain ya??hehe..) Acrnya sdri lmyn lancar n cukup menyenangkan sih buat gw, tpi ga tau deh CA-nya gmana.. Ntah ngerasa aneh, konyol, cupu atw mungkin seru..but who knows?? Tpi yg pasti gw ngerasa taun ke taun peran gw berubah, n taun ini taun yg plg menyenangkan. Ga perlu mikir macem2..Yg keamanan lah, konsumsi lah, atw lah lah lah yg laen..Just enjoy it!!(bwt panitia maap ya,,ntar kalian ada gilirannya kok,he..)
Manusia d mana pun bertindak dgn perannya masing2..Ada yg sbg dosen, mhswa, otu, anak..semua manusia punya byk bgt peran yg harus dijalanin. Ntah dalam sehari bisa brp kali kita berganti peran..luar biasa bgt ga si kita ini dibuat Tuhan =)
Gw skrg kan lg demen2nya jd asisten lab..Cari duit tambahan gtu..hehe..Ya kdg gw ngerasa aneh aja, dulu waktu gw yg praktikum gw separah anak2 200X ga si(ga semua tpi mayoritas,.) yg pengetahuan dasar aja kagak bisa, kyk kalibrasi osiloskop. Trus baca modul n tinggal nglakuin aja juga ga bisa..Udah gtu laporan yg ga ada isinya, totally s**t..yg buat dibaca pun ga ada..gosh..WTF?? Tpi siapa si gw yg berhak nilai mrk, jelek2in mrk..tpi ya ini gw. Gw yg maenin peran sbg asisten n gw berhak buat nglakuin itu.
Skrg gw berusaha idealis ama apa yg gw lakuin at least yg plg deket ama gw skrg, kuliah gw. Gw pernah nglakuin banyak kesalahan, baek yg bodoh mau pun sgt bodoh..but i want to change..Gw mau maenin peran gw dgn bener. Gw ga mau yg namanya dtg ujian dgn tgkt ga kepedean otak lbh drpd bau badan..(apa coba??) yg akhirnya nyombong krn nilai gw gede pdhl hasil nyontek..Gosh, it's not something that u can bragging about..Ashamed you, ashamed me..!

-JunCtioN-

people's heart can't lie. this is one thing i learn all over this year. maybe it's a little pathetic, c'mon..all this year is it all i got..but yes it is.. n it's mean a world to me..i never get a lesson this hard n this clear. it's through a lot of thing of course, n it isn't an easy one (damn) but i'll try to being gratefull for whatever happen, cause i'm sure God is always there. thus is my faith..

mada mada dane..

yee...finally tomorrow i'm going home..it's feel so goood, u know?? it's been a long time since the last time i go home, 10 months if i'm not counting wrong..So,.it wasnt wrong right, if i feel homesick this couple weeks, especially if i am a momy boy..huhuhuhu..=p besides, if i don't show up to may parents this holiday, i think the their gonna cut me off from the inheritance list..[just kidding of course =]

i'm pretty happy this week, dunno, everythings just feel right,hihi..Thx God,ur my inspiration,what would i do without You..=) i'm not angry anymore because my plan to flying home on last wednesday was disrupted, n now i'm trying to be patient, although it's gonna be a long..long way till i got home..yeah..i'm riding on bus..30 hours tops, hope nothing gonna happen with my b*tt sitting that long..pray for me =p

after all,. happy holiday to all of u, do not do something stupid that can cause u a trouble,okeh..??hehe
gonna miss u all..CU

pointless belog..

walah,,what a week from me..This week is a mid-test periode, which mean, lack time of sleep, lack time to having fun, n lack time to take a bath..(upss..=p, not everything u read is right, so plis,,do not avoid me..=) I'm totally exhausted today. Mid test on the morning, experiment on the afternoon n another class meeting. what made it worse is, i got sick since yesterday. all night i couldn't stop puke,..saw my meal threw over, hueekk...it is sucks..hope it's getting better. .God bless me..=|

btw it's almost weekend, yeahh..i'm desperately waiting for this week..i have a lot of film to watch,.it's been there on my hardisk for about 2 weeks n it can't wait again. i ran out of space there..maybe i should buy a new one, but hmm..after i checked out my wallet, looks like i'm on minus position this month.. gosh..to much eating pigs look like..Anyone want to be donature??i would gladly accept that..=p

i just remember i should have write my report for 2morrow, damn..almost 3hours i'm sitting in front of my comp but looks like there's nothing coming..n here i am,write this junkie thing..Actually, i'm trying to forget the film that i had watching just now. the title is supernatural. it's kinda freakin me out with their goosebump things.. a lot of blood, cool scene, n cool sound effect too,,yess it's a good movie, but it successfully haunted me this night... T_T..

ahh..whatever,i'll face it later,now i should continue my job first or i'll be really haunted with E score for my experiment class..Don't wanna think about it for sure..thx 4 anyone who stop by..=)

boRedom

sebenernya si dah dri tdi malem pengen buat ni blog. tpi yg empunya server d kos gw dah keburu matiin, jd ya tpaksa ditunda dulu, ga bisa konek internet euy.. n gw sempet curiga gara2 belom byr tagihan yg bulan lalu, jd internetnya diputus..Gw lupa,,pdhl gw yg hrsnya hgurus. maapkan aku teman2..^-^; pdhl kmrn tuh lg melow2nya low..mana bulan lg bagus bgt diliat, jd pass buat nulis blog....
haha..ga kerasa, kmrn bru buat farewell party buat tmn gw yg bakal k jepang. bodat2..udah 3 taon sejak tpb , haha..klo gw inget2 gw beda nasib bgt ama lo yaa..dah dpt apa aja lo sejak d kampus, sedangkan gw, msh d sini2 aja..tpi itu namanya hidup ya, ga seru kan klo jalan hidupnya sama semua. tpi lo tunggu aja, pokoknya ntar gw bakal sukses juga, haha..btw, omong2 soal sukses, gw jd inget ama film yg pernah gw tonton, klo ga salah judulnya "match point"..d situ dibilang, yg lo perlu doain dalam hidup itu spy lo punya "luck', sukses mah mslh belakangan..lo bisa dpt apa yg lo inginin klo lo punya "luck"..(without forget what God plan is lho..) n klo gw si, cenderung setuju ama kata2itu..hmm..hard to think..
however, farewell my friend..see u next year, of course with a new phase of our lives..God Bless Us all